tear me apart

i sit here,
tears rolling down my face,
i finally did it,
i told her what she needed to hear to get her to dump me for good,

i was never good enough for her,
she always knew that deep down inside,
maybe now i can finally stop hurting her,
and im sorry for all the times that i did...

Flyleaf - Arise

Tell the swine, we will make it out alive
There's a note in the pages of the book
So sleep tonight, we'll sleep dreamlessly this time
When we awake we'll know that everything's alright

Sing to me about the end of the world
End of these hammers and needles for you

Hold on to the world we all remember fighting for
There's some strength left in us yet
Hold on to the world we all remember dying for
There's some hope left in it yet

The snow on your face and your razor blades
The twilight is bruised and there you lie

Sing to me about the end of the world
End of these hammers and needles for you
We'll cry tonight but in the morning we are new
Stand in the sun, we'll dry your eyes

Hold on to the world we all remember fighting for
There's some strength left in us yet
Hold on to the world we all remember dying for
There's some hope left in it yet

Sing, sing, arise

Arise and be
All that you dreamed, all that you dreamed
Arise and be
All that you dreamed, all that you dreamed

Arise and be
All the you dreamed, all that you dreamed
Arise and be
All that you dreamed, all that you dreamed

Arise and be
All that you dreamed, all that you dreamed
Arise and be
All that you dreamed, all that you dreamed

Lacuna Coil - Oblivion

It's a fairy tale and the story is out of date
nothing that I haven't tried to say
you know that the road is lonely
I will need some help
you know that this life is crazy
I will need some help

(chorus)

there's a place far below
the darkness deep within
it's a place, I don't belong
come set me free from this oblivion

all inside of me
on the edge of agony
nothing left for me that I can fake
you know that the road is lonely
I will need some help
you know that this life is crazy
I will need some help

(chorus)
there's a place far below
the darkness deep within
it's a place, I don't belong
come set me free from this oblivion

It's a fairy tale and the story is out of date
nothing that I haven't tried to say

and I keep wandering away
I'm so deep in disarray
I keep Wandering

(chorus)
there's a place far below
the darkness deep within
it's a place, I don't belong
come set me free from this oblivion

I keep Wandering...

want to let go...

so much anger bottled in,
so much pain kept secret,
so much weight on my shoulders,
so little time to make myself happy...

no love, no hurt, no pain...

i removed myself from your life,
and although you may seem to hurt now,
i know you'll get over it,
after all,

you have so many friends,
you don't need me,
and i wont pretend that being with you isn't hurting me,
because it is,

being your friend hurt me,
not being your friend hurts u,
we are at an impasse,
and there is no solution....

lovehatetragedy

how can one be so madly in love with someone who utterly does not feel the same way about the latter,
a question that has plagued my mind since i had confessed my feelings and was told my the one i very much desired that she would never feel that way for me,
yet now that i have put some distance between us she cannot understand why i have drifted away,

the truth is purely simple,
i love you,
you don't love me,
but you have confused my gestures of love as me just being friends,

i cannot go on with this friendship,
knowing that what you offer me is not even a third of what i have given you so unconditionally,
i fell for you so hard,
the fall has broken me into pieces,

and i cant put myself together again,
i cant even force myself to look you in the eye sometimes,
but dont get me wrong,
its not because i hate you,

i just cant bare to share that type of intimacy with you,
its too much to bare,
it makes me sick in my stomach,
and everyday it gets tougher for me to get out of bed...

turmoil...

this emotional turmoil is more than enough to last two lifetimes,
and the charade i keep pulling seems to be wearing thin,
i just need a momentary breather,
and to immerse myself in the unknown...

dear agony

i spent the last part of the day today in complete agony,
and its my own fault,
i guess i'm just not ready to be out and about with you around,
i wish i didn't have to see you so much,

but i cant do a damn thing about it,
i'm stuck in my very own purgatory,
and i want so hard to get out,
but i cant seem to find a way,

maybe if i fill my days with constant activities,
keep myself preoccupied so i don't have to come to terms with myself,
lose my self,
seize the day...

Silent Secret

music written by : Aaron Camoens, Ahmad Kadafi, Abel Camoens and Austin Camoens (ENVY)
lyrics writte by : Austin Camoens

Silent Secret

this love inside my heart,
a flame that burns for you,
but i'll keep this all inside,
for fear of losing you,

(chorus)
and now i keep this silent secret,
because i know ill never be with you,
oh how i never hoped i'd say this,
but i will always be in love with you,

so i carry on his journey,
i walk alone without you,
why do i have to walk this journey?
why must i be without you?

(chorus)
and now i keep this silent secret,
because i know ill never be with you,
oh how i never hoped i'd say this,
but i will always be in love with you,

i keep this silent secret,

(bridge before solo)
why won't you let me in?
will you tell me how you feel?
i stand here waiting for you to make your move,
but you're still standing still...